Mohs #6

This week brought about Mohs appointment #6, of what we originally thought was 6 out of 8.  The appointment went very well and it ended up being my first one pass appointment, and I'd dare say that it was the most uneventful and comfortable pain-wise appointment to date.

Of course, there had to be some bad news thrown in there as well.  In working on spot #6, my doctor said, "Oh...um, you appear to have two new spots right next to this one."   Ugh.  I can't say that I'm completely shocked by this but I think I already have two new spots growing in the front of my head so that would actually mean I potentially have four new spots.  Double ugh.  Even worse, my doctor said in a worrying voice, "...I wonder why you're growing these new ones..."  Yeah, that's really not what I wanted to hear.

I then made the mistake of looking up Mohs procedures online once I got home.  There's such a thing as "failed Mohs procedures" which this particular doctor who wrote the article talked about how it's then necessary to use more aggressive forms of control if Mohs is "failing".  Great.  Now, I don't know if this is true or not but it certainly got my paranoia in a tizzy and I haven't stopped thinking about it since.

Also, during the appointment this week, I asked what my ear would end up looking like once it's fully grown back.  My doctor promptly said, "Oh, that's it.  It's fully grown back."  Um, what?!  Yes, apparently I'm going to be left with not much for the top area of my right ear.  Awesome.  She then went on to say that she could cut it open again, take some cartilage out of my other ear, place it in this ear, and so on, and then maybe I'd have a bit more curve at the top.  My head immediately thought, hell, if I do all that, I'll probably get another skin cancer spot on said ear and have to do the whole thing all over again.  And so, I guess for now I'm going to live with no definite top to my ear.

A bit to my surprise, my doctor said, "Well, you have a bit of a curve to the top of your ear.  I actually expected less."  Well, I just wish I had been a bit more informed of that, really.  I like my doctor and all but she's not always the greatest at explaining what I should be expecting as a result of these procedures.

In the meantime, I'm once again suffering from what I call "tight head", where the skin on your head is a bit tighter than normal due to the stitches and you're not really able to do your full range of motion.  It's an odd feeling, to say the least.

Other than that, I'm still trying to get myself motivated all over again in life in general.  I actually played a bit of guitar today, and I'm supposed to be recording in just a week from now, but trying to muster any real motivation is going to be a real trick.  I guess I'll just do the best I can.

Also, the hurricane last week pretty much ended up being nothing more than a steady drizzle.  I'm not really complaining but now I have 12 sand bags to dispose of.  Anybody need sand?!  Drop me a line if you do.