You may have noticed that I've been rather quiet lately. This is simply because I've had way too many distractions going on, and whereas I wouldn't say that I haven't been productive at all, I'm not exactly tearing it up either.
First up, my nose... I got the stitches removed last Wednesday, and whereas I had already seen the wound and what's now considered my "nose" (or new nose, if you will), I was finally able to see pretty much how my nose was healing and what to expect going forward. She wasn't kidding...my nose does look a bit different and skinnier now. I'd also dare say that it looks pointier, which isn't really what I was hoping for, but maybe it'll heal a bit differently. I used to have a great nose, or at least I thought so. I also noticed that my glasses now sit just ever so slightly in a different manner on the bridge of my nose. Once the stitches were removed, they basically glued Steri strips over the top of the wound from which I'm to wait until they fall off naturally (which hasn't yet occurred).
We also chatted a bit about my ear which is next up for the Mohs procedure. Dare I say that it freaks me out a bit. There's talk of skin grafts, a large bandage literally sewn to my ear for over a week, not being able to shower or get it wet, and so on. Sounds awful. Clearly, I won't be sleeping on that side of my body for quite some time let alone wearing headphones. I also keep worrying that a big chunk of my ear cartilage will now be missing, sort of like a missing jigsaw puzzle piece.
As if my nose and ear worries aren't enough, my eyes have also been freaking out lately. I think it's this time of year that plays pure havoc on them since in SoCal, along the ocean, we go through what they call "May Gray" and then "June Gloom", just a fancy way of saying that it's basically overcast every single day for at least half the day if not all of it. Something about the darker skies mixed with how the light hits the house seems to make my eyes on full alert. I've been pretty paranoid over the past 30 days that something was going on with them.
Last night, my eyes were really showcasing a large floater to a huge degree. And then, this morning, I awoke to the same hazy blurry vision in my left eye (my so called used to be "good eye") as I've had in my right eye since the whole retinal detachment. I have a bad feeling that my retina is detaching right now in my left eye. Not only is this alarming as is but if it's so, well, there's goes my recording week, not to mention apparently I will never see clearly again. I spent the day trying to get some stuff done and not focusing on my eye issue but it was nearly impossible since the haziness is just absurd. It was hard enough with one good eye and one bad eye, but now they're both going to be bad eyes? Ugh. The only way I can describe what I'm seeing is to imagine a piece of Saran Wrap, about the size of a dime, and having it float quickly back and forth across your eyeballs, coupled maybe with a hair or two in it and a bunch of tiny little dots. Yep, that's pretty much it.
Of course, today is a holiday so there's clearly no one at the doctor's office. I guess I'll be calling first thing in the morning to see if I can get in there. The downside either way is that they'll dialate my eyes and I won't be able to see for hours up close and so I can't really see my being too terribly productive. However, if there's any hope of not having to get a needle in the eye again, and having to lay on my side for a week straight, I'm all for it but I dare say that my hopes aren't very high. My gut tells me that they're simply going to tell me to wait until it completely detaches. Again, awesome.
I hope everyone else has had a pleasant holiday weekend. Here's to hoping that the retina doctor can somehow help me out tomorrow.
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